I’m your typical firstborn. I love rules. Rules and boundaries make me feel safe. When I was falling in love with Christ as a teenager, somehow I latched on to the “list” of what a “good Christian girl” does. Grace wasn’t even a word in my vocabulary, because I had the rules. Keeping the rules…… Continue reading Grace on my mind
Our enemy is sneaky that one. Constantly making us believe that others are more of something, while we are absolutely lacking. It’s a vicious cycle as we stand on the outside and perceive a reality that absolutely does not exist. On my friend’s post, all of a sudden woman after woman commented that they feel the exact same. So many of these women are people that I admire, that I think are awesome, that I assume KNOW exactly how awesome they are… and they all feel “less than.” Awkward. Alone. And I silently screamed inside as I read the comments “you are each so amazing. So beautiful. So vulnerable. So loved. I soooo would love to be great friends with each of you because of how awesome you all are. How do you not see it??”
I asked for Him to reveal where I went off the rails. I heard the word “rooted” right then. My roots aren’t deep enough.
“I’m sorry baby, I know you want to fly, but your momma wants you safe and sound on solid ground.” Gasp. That’s it. My fear would keep her from flying.
Each year I pick a word or theme for the year. Rather, God picks the word or theme for me and I wait for the lessons. Coming into 2017, I only kept hearing one word over and over. Miracle. “Hmmm, that is a bizarre choice.” I wasn’t really sure what to do with that one. …… Continue reading Where is the Miracle?
The whole process of choosing to adopt is fraught with doubt, confusion, fear, excitement, hope, more doubt and many leaps of faith. It’s one of the craziest things because when you make this particular leap of faith, there is no shortage of people reminding you of ALL the things that can go wrong and all the ways that your heart can be broken. The crazy part about that is… your mind has already gone there. Your heart is fragile and open and you KNOW that there is a very real possibility that it is going to be shattered into approximately 5.2 millions pieces.
20 seconds. What seemed like inconveniences that day are likely the very things that saved my friends.
There is something the Lord has been wanting me to share for awhile… I just really haven’t wanted to. It’s going to require such a vulnerability about something so very personal. I’ve shared some before about my life long battle with anxiety, but never extreme in-depth. The past several weeks, my eyes have been opened…… Continue reading The Thorn in my Side
It’s been awhile since I’ve written in this blog… Not because I didn’t want to, but because I didn’t feel like God was impressing a specific word on my heart. When I started this, I committed my words to Him. I never wanted to write just to write. I wanted it to be about listening…… Continue reading Liar Liar
It happened again. That moment you start thinking about someone and you realize that you haven’t seen anything from them in awhile. You go to look at their profile and you see it. “Add friend”. Um… I’m pretty sure we were friends. However, I know that occasionally facebook likes to stir up drama, so before…… Continue reading Unfriended
When God Whispered 